Wednesday, January 14, 2009

It's me or.....

Over the last few months of last year three friends of mine had given their significant others ultimatums. All of them felt strongly about their respected positions. I deduced that, essentially, they want control over another human being and that is a long road to nowhere. An ultimatum is a dead end road. Whenever you are at the point when you are asking your lover to choose you or a relationship over another distraction, you've already lost. Ultimatums are a desperate last attempt for proof of love and if you don't have it already, then honey it sure ain't coming now.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

NYC Subway

I detest the NY subway. When I come out from under it I want take the hottest shower in the world and dip myself in bleach, twice. I hardly take it unless I have to. Far too many energies that I can deal with. I was on it today for over an hour each way. Of course the subway will not be complete without a panhandler. This woman comes in the subway car and her schpiel went like this

"Hello ladies and gentleman. I am homeless, hungry and pregnant. And I have a four year old daughter and your donations make it possible for us to afford shelter every night. Any thing you can give us, food, juice water or cash would be greatly appreciated.

Of course people ponied up the dough to her sad story. I heard it before from the same lady a few months ago and her belly is still flat. And like the last time I saw her her daughter wasn't with her. Then she said the same thing in Spanish. That's the only thing that changed about her gammut.

Not five minutes later the self-proclaimed "DVD Man" has his schpiel. I locked eyes with this lady sitting across from me with the "Seriously?" look. If the Bootleggers Association for the Distribution of Movies were a legitimate company he could have been the CEO. He pointed out to us that he has the latest releases, including Will Smith's "Seven Pounds" which will open this weekend and other blockbuster titles. He certified the validity of the DVD.s since no camcorders were used, strictly downloads from the computer and there were no pesky head bobbing and shaky hand syndrome that plague the other bootleg DVD's on the market. Then the coup de gras was he did it all again in Espanol. The same lady and I just busted out laughing.

Apparently, hustling has now gone multilingual. You'd think with their linguistic prowess they'd be motivated to find a job. Or maybe they just know only how to say their schpeils in Spanish. Kudos to their marketing technique! In any event, they will appeal to a broader audience with Spanish, since NY is the cultural epicenter.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Reiki Power!

On Sunday night I was on my feet the ENTIRE day. When I got home at around midnight my calves were on fire. I was in pain and they felt like acid was being churned inside. So Boo gave me a massage and it did help. We went to bed and I awokened at around 0430. My calves were still hurting. Finally I had enough and I went into to living room and reikied myself . I literally planted my hands on my calves for twenty minutes. I could just feel the energy channeling through my hands and alleviating the pain. My hands were warm and and it times hot.

Reiki is smart energy and when it was time to stop, I was directed by energy to elevate my feet. This experience solidified my belief in Reiki energy. It was the first time since my attunement that I've felt pain and used the energy to feel better. I've reikied myself through two head colds, but this last time was such a relief for me. I cannot wait for the next level.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

What's my Motivation?

I've been in a fitness slump since my fast. That went very well until I got sick. My body's defences were so weak from the lack of food that I was susceptible to someone's nasty cold. I had to cut the ten days short to seven days without food. The upside is that I broke it gently with vegetable broth soup and a juice concoction of apples, carrots and ginger. I also reikied myself and was better in two days. It knocked me out though.

As far as working out..that's not working out lately. I don't know why I haven't made the effort, but Brazil is now less that two months so I better hop to it. My BF has started working out again and his body is getting hard and I see some muscle definition. All it took him was two weeks to see a difference. Not fair. It's all mental for me right now. I am just not thinking about working out. There is so much going on right now. Although now that I am writing about it, I am feeling guilty and wanting to move my ass. I guess this blog is useful after all.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Fasting

I decided to go on a ten day fast. Today is Day 4. I am still thinking about food. The key to fasting is breaking it gently. My mentor told a story of a woman who fasted for twelve days then went to McDonald's for a burger. Needless to say she got really sick. Your body is deprived of food for days and you are going to put beef in it, much less nasty Mikki D's? Ugh!

I plan on breaking my fast using this method:

Day 1 Two pieces of fruit. Each piece of fruit is divided in half so there are four servings for that day.

Day 2 Lightly steamed non-starchy vegetables, such as spinach.

Day 3 Brown rice, fresh salad.

Day 4 Organic yogurt, unflavored and unsweetened. Eggs.

Day 5 Meat, chicken, fish, tofu, if eaten.

Day 6 Beans, other grains may be introduced, if eaten.

Day 7 Other foods, as desired.


I've been drinking lots of peppermint tea, water and the Master Cleanse mix of Grade B maple syrup, cayenne pepper and organic lemon juice. It's really been a test of my mental strength. I've told only a few key people who I know will support me. At work I keep getting invites for lunch and dinner and I politely decline. Even now, am delayed in Fort Lauderdale and my crew is going to Chili's for dinner. They already think I am anti social. I know this is for my greater good. I am here keeping busy, working on my body.

Different airports offer different treats for me and I've had to avoid them completely. On the plane, these people just can't stop watching the Food Network. Talk about torture. I've been looking at Paula, Rachel, Bobby and Emeril salivating. Today I was given a Rachel Ray magazine. I plan on making jerk turkey burgers with cranberry sauce. After two weeks of course. I pour over the pages and dog ear everythink that looks good. Yesterday the NY Times section had some great vegetarian recipes that I fully intend to cook.

I've been reikiing myself every night and falling asleep like a brick, (not remembering my dreams though.) The energy cleansing is reflected in my runny nose and extra saliva. This is a great time for me spritually since I am fasting and just finished Level I Reiki. I haven't performed a full body session since my atunement. The energy paths have to develop fully and the more I practice channelling the better it is for me. The absence of food by choice for days is giving me an appreciation for nourishment, not fulfillment. I only have the one body and the things I put it in must be for fuel and not deter any of the functions. It's a process and journey for me as I'd like to make it enjoyable, but not abuse.

Monday, August 4, 2008

12 Weeks and Counting

Mission: Lose 10 pounds and carve a lean body for the beach in Bahia, Brazil.

It's already Aug. 4 and I am off to a rocky start. Let's see, I wanted to change my diet on Aug. 1 but I was in Jamaica, it's mango season and they don't call me Mango Belly for nothing. Then I was at Helshire Beach eating fried snapper and festival. My nephew asked that I partake in Devon House (home made) ice-cream. Today I had a shrimp roti, pizza with extra cheese and slice of red velvet cake. This blog will keep me honest. I am putting my eating out there so I can be accounted for. This will be my food diary, my fitness journal and bits about my spiritual path.

I ran into my trainer at the supermarket with his gorgeous girl. I'm talking black barbie. I saw him peep into my basket. I had nothing to be ashamed of, shrimp, scallops, red potatoes and pita bread. Hah! take that Mr. Tuna and Peanut butter for Lunch! Plus I was walking with the Bear and he firmly instructed my trainer to "maintain ass integrity." Can you imagine? I then took my queue and perused the stewed tomatoes a few feet away.

I became a Level I Reiki practioner yesterday. I was buzzing with energy when I left. Colors are brighter and I feel more connected. Funny thing though, today I was acutely aware of so much energy around me especially from people walking close to me. I just wanted to come home and be inside. I have to watch that, I can't be paranoid. I intend to take my reiki practice to the expert level.

Well I completed my DO NOW list for today.